I have been doing the Deepak Chopra 21-Day Meditation Challenge (link to pic above) and while I have never been a fan of guided meditations, these ones have been very beneficial to me and I will tell you why.
Like many alcoholics / skeptics, I didn’t think that sitting still, in my own skin and focusing on either nothing or a mantra, would do anything for me. I hated being in my own skin, and now I am asked to sit there and do what? I resisted for many months. I felt that prayer was enough, and that should count towards my conscious contact with my HP.
My sponsor suggested lighting a candle and using that to focus. I tried it a few times, and it was ok. I would meditate maybe once every two weeks. I didn’t last more than 3-4 minutes without being self-conscious and uneasy. But as I realized that it energized me, it kept me grounded, it kept me still and at peace – all the things that I didn’t have in my alcoholism, I found a new release, a new outlet. I don’t feel that I need to be on the go all the time. When I seek answers, they almost always come during meditation. It brings me down when I am up in arms in my own head.
Now I can do about 20-25 minutes at a time. But I sometimes fall asleep…so I have some work to do! But with the guided meditations, they gently lead me, and give me enough space to find my spot, that place where I am neither fully awake nor dozing off, but caught in that fleeting moment of sheer serenity. It’s like trying to catch the wind, and when I get there, it’s magical. But short lived.
So as the week finishes up, and so does the challenge, I am left to wonder how it will change my practice. I will probably go back to my quiet meditation, but I am glad I took the challenge and opened my mind to different ways of doing it.